honor | reverb
2005-12-19 : 9:55 p.m. "roses"
i really hope that i get in.
it seems like everything i want.
life takes a path i can't control and i go places so quickly because the course is accelerated and i try to get there and i try to keep up but i can't trade this life for another. i can't exchange my past for someone else's, i can't control my heart. why does integrity matter so much? why am i so far distanced from my body? why do surprise visits from people who care make me choke? why do i envy those who are in more pain than i? what am i trying to achieve?
going away won't fux anothing. it's just that... i don't want to stay here... i'm not going anywhere.
laenaroo.
i'm doing this luna bar thing for the next few days. i'll be shocked if it works out. it's worth a shot, though.